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Thursday

Yes, there were pirouettes.

Creepy faceless people!!!


No, you won't be able to sing along.

Today I lived a dream that I had waited literally twenty years to see realized.

That's right, my friends: NEWSIES THE MUSICAL.


And, much like the ultimate outcome of the 1899 newsboys' strike, compromises were made, but it was ultimately a positively transformative experience.

Firstly, and most importantly, you will not be able to sing along. In my case, this may have been for the best. But in addition to adding several new numbers, the stage production changes a significant portion of the lyrics of the familiar tunes. "King Of New York" comes away with the least editing, so prep yourself for that. The dancing, though, was all in. It was like the most niche-market Cirque du Soleil you could imagine. The stage is its medium and it was glorious. The curtain call was more entertaining than perhaps half the shows I've ever seen. The set, comprised mainly of blocks of fire escapes, was a little Jailhouse Rock, but it made for an excellent platform for swinging and spinning.

There are also many changes to the storyline. Some of these worked for me, others didn't, but most just made me question. I feel like I need to sit for a while and suss out what the message of the show is, and how these choices serve (or don't serve) that message. Most reviews that you can already find of the show have made note that the story of the working class struggle against the wealthy elite is more resonant these days than it was in the early 90s. While that's certainly true, the story here is actually about the working class youth and their railing against the oppressive institutions of their elders. Considering that I attended a matinee performance, this was surprisingly well received by the audience. I have not yet reached a verdict.

Let me break down some of the other changes for you:

STARBUCK DENTON IS A CHICK!
Omg, you guys. You remember Jack Kelly's love interest? She was a blonde girl, I think she was Davey's sister or something? Of course you don't. No one remembers her because she served absolutely no purpose. So they went and did the best thing I can think of: They made her Bryan Denton. It is by miles the best change in the production. (And, earning my love even further, she is still the king, not queen, of New York.) Unfortunately, the actress playing her is only half as delightful as she needs to be. But in more dynamic hands, this could be a role that little girls grow up longing to play, and her solo song is the only one of the additions that I fully enjoyed.

Crutchy's up ... nearly everyone else is down.
Without the megawatt star power of Max Casella, our main newsie becomes Crutchy. This makes a lot of sense, and it works for how they tell the story. Unfortunately, while the rest of the ensemble retains their quirky nicknames, they're even less discernible as individual characters than they were in the film. That's not Crutchy's fault; he's not getting more lines at the expense of anyone. But it seems like a waste of resources. I would have liked to see distinctive and memorable characters*. In addition to Crutchy, they also bulked up the role of Les, Davey's little brother. I liked that, too. He was entertaining. He added to things. Unfortunately, this left Davey himself off in a corner. Played very much as a Portrait of the Nebbish as a Young Man, he neither establishes a meaningful relationship with Jack nor does he stand on his own as a strike organizer. Around the beginning of the second half, I was trying to figure out, "Which one is that again?" before realizing it was Dave. Oy.

*Most especially for the love-of-my-young-life, Spot Conlon. Yes, Spot. He's a glorified extra. I should have asked Harvey Fierstein if he's familiar with the term "ensemble darkhorse." Oh hey, by the way, I totally met Harvey Fierstein. If he's reading this, I was the girl who shouted "Thank you, Mr. Fierstein!" as you were bookin' it to the parking lot. It is so, so, so weird that you don't have a beard anymore, by the way.

Pulitzer's moustache was not long enough to twirl.
But damned if he didn't try. In my least favorite modification, Joseph Pulitzer was portrayed as the most villainous villain this side of Anastasia's Rasputin. Granted, almost anything is a step down from Robert Duvall, but it was sour to realize that he could have gotten away with his monopolistic schemes if it hadn't been for those meddling kids.

Let's talk about Jeremy Jordan.
Jeremy Jordan played Jack Kelly. In his bio, it reads: "Jeremy Jordan is fulfilling his lifelong (well, since he was 9) dream of playing the infamous Jack Kelly!" And you guys, the highest compliment I can pay his performance is that I believe it. He was amazing. Christian Bale can get in line. God, I hope he makes it.


As a final note, I'd just like to say that the Paper Mill Playhouse has some serious layout issues to which the wicked bruise above my right knee can attest. They did provide me with an iced pumpkin muffin, though, which was nearly worth the $5 I paid for it.

Ladies and (... just ladies, right?), Newsies! the Musical.

Friday

MYSTERY CAR: THE RETURN!

You remember that time I saw that car with a weird "R" logo that I couldn't identify?

No? THAT'S WHY I LINK YOU.

Thrilling update! I saw it again! And I still have no idea what it is! But I took a really crappy picture of it with my cell phone. Look!




WHAT IS IT.

Sunday

Happy Easter!

Or: This is now a baby blog, but with kittens. Sorry!

Last year on Easter, you may recall, my beloved cat died and it was very terrible and sad. This year, we decided to go, instead, with a box of kittens. Upgrade, basically.



Box of kittens. The smears you can see on the sides are from their eye medicine. Their eyes look pretty good!




This is tabby and the girl black one. We call the black ones "the twins" even though they are no more twins than the rest of them. Tabby is a girl.




The twins. The girl is biting her brother, but normally they love each other. They stick together most of the time. He has a few white hairs on his chest, and they both may or may not have eyebrows.




This is gray. She is kind of a loner. Also these next pictures are post-eye goo.




This is orange. This is the clearest picture I could get of orange, because he is bad. He likes to fight with his siblings. But he also loves to cuddle, and will bite his siblings until you pick him up and cuddle him.




He fights with gray a lot.




She does not take his crap.

And no, they don't have names beyond their color designations, and a few nicknames (such as "Pretty Face" or "The Whiner"). Three or four of them will eventually be living elsewhere, and there's no point in calling them something so that I can get annoyed when their new families give them far stupider names. Probably.



... And oh, right! My father. He's doing very well, thank you. I am going to bring him some colored eggs tomorrow. On Monday he will find out if they will admit him to their affiliated rehab clinic. He'd stay there for about a week. That may not sound desirable, but it totally, totally is. If you'd like to cross your fingers for anything, be it for not sending him home soon. He really needs to be monitored and worked on to get him on his feet again, and if they send him home it will be very difficult and frustrating. For him, but, I mean, for me.

Also all my bills are paid up for like, the first time this year! Holy shit, I hope the irony fairies aren't gearing up for something.

Saturday

Storyteller.

I have been extra thinky lately, and I feel a desire to write. Of course, my usual problems with writing still apply, mainly a crippling fear of plot.

So here's what I propose: I'll write a story for you! Yes! You. All you have to do is tell me what story you would like me to tell to you. Then, in the reasonably near future, I will write that story. And ... blog it, I guess.

Open-ended, time-wise. First come, first served. Be as specific as you dare, for I have short-term imagination loss.

Friday

Success!!

Today I received a call from my niece, officially inviting me to her birthday party.

In the course of the conversation, she told me that she wanted me to make her a mix CD, like I have previously done. Because she listens to those, and the Beatles CD I got her, all the time. She knows all the words to all the songs. She thinks I have amazing taste.

I am so pleased with myself right now. I can't remember if I wrote about it here or not, but it had been my intent to introduce her to better music than the Z100 crap she favored. ... Thereby saving her life through art and making sure she doesn't become an insipid and unmindful and jaded person. Pretentious? Yes. Jerky? Maybe. But whatever because PHASE ONE COMPLETE.

... She also made a list of songs she wants included. Apparently her favorite song right now is "If U Seek Amy." Which, I mean, I'd object, but let's just say that would involve a certain amount of hypocrisy.

Later in the conversation she informed me of her plans to become a forensic investigator, and told me she looks up to me because I don't need a man to complete my life.

She will be 11.

Saturday

NO MORE ROBOTS.

... Except for the new Robots movie. And the new Robots series. Which I can apparently get on DVD? (??)

NO MORE ROBOTS, though.

It was a three tissue evening.

There were things I liked.

There were things I did not like.

One of my pet theories was shot to hell and that made me a little sad.

Also, about that one thing? They didn't say it wasn't true, so I'm still assuming it is.

My socks were rocked off at some point during the proceedings.

NOW I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF.

Thursday

My life: fuck it.

So, I have this external hard drive. And on this I have 90% of all my personal computing business. And no, most of it is not backed up, don't even bother talking about it, now is not the time and I don't want to hear it.

I was playing a video file and it stopped. Not crashed, just started working slowly and poorly. This was my only indication that something was awry. Suddenly my drive is corrupted and unreadable. I turn it off, unplug it, replug it, turn it back on. Windows tells me that the drive needs to be formatted before I can use it. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

I am now confused and stressed and fearful and upset over the uncertainty. But then, since this is my DEFAULT STATE these days, I'm not really reacting at all. I refuse to lose my shit until I deem it absolutely necessary. I just need to massage my jaw a little maybe.

I am attempting to recover the data, and I do not know how that will go because I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm not thinking clearly. If you have any helpful advice, please feel free to impart it.

In the meantime: fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.

ETA - THE ANSWER IS YAY!

Saturday

Hey, look over here!

So, I got older. I ... didn't get over it. I have wanted to blog but nothing is good enough. December is full of birthdays.

My options for topics are either You Know What, discussing how I fail in various arenas, memes, or something else entirely. I opt for meme. I had several caffeinated beverages today.

BUT WHICH MEME?

Actually, I don't even know if this counts. Let's all take a quiz!

Can You Guess Where My Accent Is From?

To psyche you out before you even begin, I scored 42. Because I'm awesome. But I won't tell you what I got wrong, because that's less awesome.

Tuesday

A+; would lol again!

So a dear, tolerant, and understanding friend took me to see "Quantum of Solace" today and you can't prove otherwise. My choice of cinema was one that I should really spend more time going to now that I'm more comfortable driving for more than 10 minutes at a time. It's an amazing place: a multimegagigagoogolplex that never ever has anybody in it any time I go there. I really don't know how they stay in business, but I have a suspicion that the place might come to life on weekend evenings. I mean, I hope. Anyway, when we went there it was practically deserted, giving me a good idea of what I would like to have adjoining my fabulous house once I become super-rich.

We were the only ones in the theater except for one old dude sitting up front. Your guess is as good as mine. Before they got to the feature there was a lot of static and long periods of blank screen and I wondered aloud if God was seriously going to fuck with me like this. I was kind of grateful for the sketchy old dude, because what exactly would happen if there was a showing of a movie and no one bought tickets to it? Would they still play it? Anyway, luckily Jesus interceded in the designs of His Father or something, because suddenly it was all happening.

(I'll just pause to slip in my complaint that the Harry Potter trailer was not goddamn fucking shown. All they were showing was trailers for truly hideous "comedies". ... But hey, at least they've learned to market this series properly.)

I won't even lie to you: it was exactly the kind of transcendental experience I had been hoping for. After enduring about ten months of non-stop hype, it did not disappoint, and that's all I have to say about that.

I could say that I'm a little disappointed - I didn't laugh the entire time, so I occasionally had to pay attention to the plot that the screenwriter valiantly tried to inject this mess with. She tried her best. She tried real hard. But, seriously, I think I may have bruised a kidney. Fluid may or may not have burst out of my face at some point.

The Fountain of Gold was fantastic. I'm coming down on this. Anyone is free to disagree, because I am firm in my resolve. I think the deciding factor may be whether or not the observer has read the books. Because as someone who has, his performance was, in a word, understated. The man can only work with what he's given. He can't do miracles.

Jasper and Alice continue to be too good for this shit, constipated face included.

George Lucas continues to do an ace job at ruining movies with his additions, though to be fair it's not really conscionable to lay the blame for Twilight at his feet, as much as I would love to blame George Lucas for everything. They should really just borrow my nude sparkly eyeshadow for the sequel.

In conclusion, Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeere's Carlisle!!:


Sweet dreams!

omg omg omg HOME STRETCH.

So, as you've already probably heard by now, the Twilight movie is opening this Friday. I occurs to me that I may not have made my thoughts about this clear. I can't wait to see this movie. Although I won't actually be seeing it until Tuesday. But I am so excited.

There are several reasons for this, one being getting to see The Fountain Of Pure Gold in action. Another being that I will get to see the new Harry Potter trailer writ super large because it's being shown before it. Mostly though, I cannot wait because I am pretty sure that this is going to be the unintentional comedy of the year, and I cannot wait to MST3K that shit.

Actually, do you know what this movie is? This movie is The Rocky Horror Picture Show for the 21st century. I have been of this opinion for a while. It just lends itself too easily to such a treatment. A theater-full of people throwing glitter and opening up their rainbow umbrellas and yelling things at the screen. And recently, I discovered something that completely supports my theory: there's a local theater that does midnight showings of RHPS, and this week they are going to be showing a midnight premiere of Twilight instead. Amazing.

To conclude, here are some quotes from recent articles about how deeply creepy Twilight fans are:

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"But if you think Pattinson was the only 'Twilight' star earning shrieks last night, you may have chosen the wrong side in the 'Team Edward' vs. 'Team Jacob' battle. 'I think I'm dreaming, and I keep telling people to pinch me,' said an adrenaline-fueled Lautner, not yet 17 years old and already having fans twice his age throw themselves at him. "[An older woman] told me she was wearing 'Team Taylor' panties and [said], 'If you want, you can sign them.' Luckily, my publicist was there to save me!" "

NB: Taylor is the first name of the actor, not the character. Furthermore in the video of the interview, he said the woman was in her 40s.

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"Robert went on to tell a story about a group of girls who scratched their necks for him. "There were some girls who had scratched ... the side of their necks so [they were] freshly bleeding when they came up to get a signature. They were like, 'We did this for you.' I didn't know what to say. 'Um, thanks guys?'""

-----

And I don't know who this guy is, but, he's pretty amazing. I mean, except when he says that Robert Pattinson is a bad actor. I don't want this to be true, because we totally can't be bffs if that's true. I WILL LET YOU KNOW, THOUGH.

http://www.accesshollywood.com/mantz-rantz-twilight_video_838561

"It was so cheesy I got fat just watching the movie."

omg omg omg omg omg omg omg,

OMG.

please please please please please please please.

ugh.


ETA:

Thursday

I'm sorry.

I'm sure this will pass tomorrow. ... Sunday the latest. But right now? I love my new fandom more than I love all of you.

I'm sorry.

Sunday

Schadenfreude is love.

There are few things that make me angrier than people driving all crazy around my also envehicled personage. There's usually gesticulating.

However, today, I figured out what can make that anger immediately dissipate. It's the greatest thing in the world. It is watching the person who swerved to cut you off get pulled over.

Woo hoo!!

Friday

OK! Computer!

I actually don't like Radiohead, but the title still must be used sometimes.

Folks, I have an announcement. For the first time in nearly a decade, I have a new computer. Okay, there was that time when I went to college and I had my own computer, but then I stopped using it and switched back to the ol' junk bucket. That's not important right now.

What's important is that it's so sexy I want to cry.

Vista? It's not that bad. The wom-wom window effect might eventually give me a headache, but ... dear God. SO PRETTY.

When I was setting things up, I found myself, um, unconsciously stroking the console. It's just so smooth!!

Wednesday

And for ironic kicks ...

1. Go to Career Cruising, www.careercruising.com
2. Put in Username: nycareers and Password: landmark.
3. Take their “Career Matchmaker” questions.
4. Post the top twenty results.


1. Costume Designer
2. Special Effects Technician
3. Animator
4. Fashion Designer
5. Makeup Artist
6. Set Designer
7. Graphic Designer
8. Artist
9. Computer Animator
10. Medical Illustrator
11. Comedian
12. Composer
13. Website Designer
14. Industrial Designer
15. Desktop Publisher
16. Cartoonist/Comic Illustrator
17. Actor
18. Musician
19. Video Game Developer
20. Magician

I'm not quite sure if I'm surprised about any of this! Also, I just want to make sure that no one worries about my current state of disemployment. Besides it being the best thing ever, I already have things in the works.

Monday

GUESS WHO QUIT HER JOB TODAY!!

Guess who is the happiest little muffin in the whole freaking land!

That's right my friends: ME.

Of course, it's not all sunshine and lollipops. For one thing, there's the fact that I wasted the last year and a half of my life. Wasted. I lost that time. There is not a single thing that happened in that time that I wouldn't give up to have that time back, but I will never ever have it back. This is depressing.

However. I am so. freaking. happy. right. freaking. now. I would be shouting, but I must maintain decorum. Tomorrow.

Tuesday

So I can die with a smile on my face, without feelin' like the Good Lord gipped me.

[very long, contented sigh]

You read it, right? You read it? If you didn't read it, WHY ARE YOU HERE? Go read it. Go read it or I'm not friends with you anymore.

[Begin Spoiler for Harry Potter, Book 7. The Deathly Hallows. — Highlight to view]

First, allow me to answer a question. Yes I am completely aware of how much I freaking rock!!!! I mean, I don't know why Percy was at the train station, what with having a country to run and everything. Uh. Um. Anyway!

Even though I was convinced that it would happen, I still wept like a little girl. Actually, once I got into it, I had almost entirely convinced myself that I was wrong, because of George's ear. "Oh!" I thought. "That's great! She just needs to mark one as different from the other! That totally has a comparable emotional resonance! And no one has to die!" Heh. Uh. Oops. I totally cried. I love the twins. Actually, though, I've always loved George more, for some reason. But still.

Actually, okay, you know when I first cried? Luna's eulogy to Dobby. Ach! Ach!! I started to freak out a little bit when they were in her house, because I knew right away that she wasn't really there, and I thought she was dead. I would have lost it. But she wasn't! They were too hard on her father. I mean, there's being brave, and then there's wanting your daughter to not be killed. Plus, I don't want to hear a thing against him because of the scene at the wedding when he told her that if she felt the urge to sing opera, she shouldn't suppress it. That was beautiful. Xenophilius, dudes. What the fuck.

I thought so many people were dead, but then they weren't. I had my heart in my throat anytime Neville did anything. NEVILLE. NEVILLE IS LOVE. Is Neville not love? Neville is love. Neville. Is. Love.

I was so pissed off about Lupin and Tonks, though. Lupin was, if I were to make a vague list, third behind Neville and Ron, for me. I loved him so. Yes, even after the fight thing. Because he is so totally like that. But I love him anyway. And I had so much affection for Tonks. And for a brief shining moment there, they were totally the most awesome couple ever. Also, Holy Christ! What is it with this woman and orphaning babies??

I can't believe Ron and Hermione only got one kiss. Granted, I almost gleed out of my skin when they fell asleep holding hands, but come on! When you're starving, you don't want to be thrown a bone, you want to be thrown a steak.*

* metaphorically. I don't eat cows.

Oh, then there was everything else that happened. Let me sum it up thusly: IT WAS ALL FUCKING AWESOME.

[End Spoiler]


Also, they do indeed have the PotterCast (Heee!!!!!!!!!!![/spoiler]) that I was on up now. I actually think I came out sounding pretty good. Better than it actually was at the time, really. Only, there's one thing, and I cannot stress this enough: My voice is not normally that nasal. Holy crap! Hopefully someone who's actually spoken to me can attest to this fact. Um. I hope. I mean, I am from New Jersey. But normally you can't really tell. I think it's because I've been spending so much time talking with my mother, who seriously does sound like that all the time. It's catching. Like spattergroit.

Friday

Loosen your tie, 'cause it's time to get crazy.

I don't care how much you write
I'm not going back to Privet Drive
Spend the summer at the Burrow
With my gir-uh-ul

We're going looking for trouble
We're gonna finish this
This time around
We're going looking for trouble
We're gonna finish this
Once and for all

Don't go expecting answers
I'm taking Hedwig with me
And when they're ready
Ron and Hermione

We're going looking for trouble
We're gonna finish this
Once and for all
We're going looking for trouble
(Talking about You-Know-Who)
We gotta finish this
This time around

Though before we had our reasons
This time it's personal
You can pretend that you don’t care
But you know you cried

We're going looking for trouble
We're gonna finish this
Once and for all
We're going looking for trouble
(Talking about You-Know-Who)
We gotta finish this
This time around

Do you have any leads on where the Horcruxes are?
'Cause I don't have a clue
I don't know who RAB is
Do you?
Do you?

We're going looking for trouble
We're gonna finish this
This time around
We're going looking for trouble
We gotta finish this
Once and for all
We're going looking for trouble
We gotta finish this
This time around
We're going looking for trouble
We gotta finish this
Once and for all


- Alex Carpenter, The Remus Lupins


This is totally it, guys. IT IS OUT. Which means that this is the start of my internet silence, and possible voluntary shut-in-ism, until the book is in my hands and I have read it through. The next time you see me or you talk to me? I will know everything. And so will you.

Eeeeeeeeek!

Ladies and gentlemen, refresh your browsers.

Or, put more aptly: Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I'm so very happy and excited! Look at my blog! LOOK AT IT! I am delighted. I cannot even coherently express how happy I am with my shiny new blog. At best, I can write random, exultant words, like so: YAY! EXCITMENT! HEE! AWESOMTASTIC! BLOG!

See?

However, before you say anything, I would like to tell you that this is all thanks to tiniest young Lauren, who is the best thing ever. For some time now, she has been toiling away trying to adjust my template to match my ridiculous expectations. She would run in, crying and sweating, and fretting, "I'm sorry this is taking so long!" and I, reclining on a couch, watching television and scarfing down popcorn would reply, "It's cool!"

... That was hyperbole. What I mean is that Lauren did everything. Also that I love her and she is terrific.

BLOG!

Thursday

LETTER DAY.

I would like to announce that, as of today, I have paid off my student loan, in full.

Thank you.