Over the past several years, I've had some recurring dreams that place me back in high school. In the typical one, I'm naked or otherwise in some state of undress. But in a deviation from what tv has told me is the standard, no one ever notices. And my quest is always to find clothes before everyone realizes that I'm without them. The dream ends, of course, after my nonstop failure to get this done.
The next frequent one features me getting the news that I won't graduate because I've failed to complete required coursework. I usually wake up and flutter around in a panic until I remember that I've actually got a university degree.
A couple nights ago, I had a school-related dream that I haven't had since I was an active student. In this one, my classmates and I have all come out of a math exam. Everyone is fretting, and everyone wants to know what answers I came up with for various questions. Joke's on them, though, because I totally guessed at all the answers. I don't know any theories or formulas and I'm pretty sure all my answers are wrong. Still, everyone looks to me like I'm the authority.
So, it seems that in the estimation of my subconscious, I have gone from being a failure to merely being a fraud. That's something, I guess!
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Good for you! I'm stuck at the second stage - I have been having dreams almost every week where I'm in high school again, pretty late in the year, and I haven't done anything, or I don't have any books, or what have you, and I'm panicking, until I realize - in the dream, mind you - that no, I'm okay, I've graduated from high school and college.
In the last one I had like that, I actually told the teacher who was harassing me about not having my supplies or homework or whatever, "you know what? I don't need to be here." and it was really empowering.
Anyway, congrats! Being a fraud is way better than being a failure. And as you are actually neither, you totally win.
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